You’re six years old now and I sit back and wonder where the time went. I know that this is a garish cliche, but really, parents do wonder this. These past 6 years have passed so quickly! I remember at one point your Daddy and I were talking about where we wanted you to go to school, but we dismissed the conversation because we had so much time until it was a needed conversation. And now here you are, thriving in kindergarten. Time flies, indeed. (just to add another cliche to the bunch.)
And now regarding kindergarden. It’s a bit of story, one you know. We moved to get into the coveted school district for a very particular school, and lo, we were waitlisted. So that leaves regular public school, very expensive private school or homeschool. Your Daddy was finally convinced by me to homeschool. You love it. You claim that you don’t want to go into a regular classroom. I hope that in 6 more year, 12 more years, 18 more years you still feel that way, or at the very least you’re not angry at our choice to homeschool you. But you are doing well. You have a busy schedule, I found this amazing program for you where you hike for a whole day with other kids. I belive this is the most perfect program for you, outside in your beloved mountains with bugs, plants and animals. This makes the world your classroom and you are an eager student. (more cliches!) We’ve learned that you are tenacious and possibly immune to poison oak. Being that you are the smallest in your group, it was hard for you to keep up at first and carry your pack, loaded with your water, lunch and change of shoes and clothes. Often one of the guides would end up carrying something for you. But you are getting strong! Daddy and I can see the difference in your body. You’re getting muscular! We can see the muscles in your legs, it’s equally impressive and scary that my tiny baby has such muscle! But now, only 6ish months since you started you carry your own pack, loaded with everything on your own! I am very proud of you for this! About the poison oak. I would really like for you to stop testing your theory that you’re immune. I fear that your immunity might wear off. That would be a little uncomfortable for you.
Anyhow, you’re in other homeschool classes too. You love the science class you do and another program, related to the hiking one, but it’s at a standing location and it’s a free choice program. You’re doing well there also. It’s noted that you gravitate to the older girls, and they all adore you. Last month they were studying Ancient Egypt and you lvoed it all. You told me early in the school year that you wanted to study mummies, so this was perfect for you. Also Daddy took you to the Egyptian museum so you could see some real mummies. I think you were a little aghast at what a mummy actually looks like, but you still enjoyed it. I love watching you get excited by learning, it’s inspiring!
On to growth, you’re still tiny, wearing 4T tops and bottoms and size 9 shoe. It looks like you’ve gained more weight this year than last, maybe 2-3 pounds, which is good considering you only gained 4 ounces from ages 4-5! You’ve started eating more, but most of the gain is muscle, I am sure of it! All of that hiking! Emotionally your growth is normal, I’d guess. I see you drifting from having little kid emotions to these big emotions, big drama. It’s exhausting and trying for me, and I can bet it’s as bad if not worse for you. I see you struggling with what you feel, and it’s hard for me to watch. I KNOW what you’re going through, because I did it too. Some of the struggles you are having now plagued me into adulthood. My hope is that I can help you figure them out sooner than later so that some later transitions you have won’t be as awful. Mostly I want to work on your confidence. You struggle with letting people see you fail. So rather than failing you won’t try or you’ll be silly to defray the situation. I see this in your gymnastics class a lot. You are the clown of the class, and sometimes it’s disruptive. I know you’re just scared of making a mistake, but please don’t be so scared! I know we talk about this every class, but it bears repeating, as it’s a life lesson. No one really cares if you make a mistake, especially if you are trying. You’ll get it, you’re a lot more skilled than you think, naturally. Your coaches tell me that when you try you are really good, a natural even. So my love, don’t give up, and keep trying. You’re amazing!
Socially you’re still outgoing, but clearly an introvert. You will go into a crowd willingly, but you stay on the fringes of it, alone. But in a small group with 1 or 2 others you excel. You’re a natural leader in a situation like that and are so much more at home. It took me a while to really realize this, because you don’t shy away from a large group, but you don’t engage in it. You’ll happily play with children at a playground, even if you don’t know them, which really demonstrates how you are outgoing. It’s served you well in our new homeschool community. You’ve made a lot of friends and a couple of new best friends. It’s been really wonderful to watch you grow socially. You really are a social butterfly and will engage all ages of people, which is new this year. In the past you’d hide behind me, now if someone says hi, you’ll talk their ears off.
And the biggest news of this year is that you’re a big sister again! We welcomed Maizie this past December, and you have done amazing with her. Just like with Hudson you have shown no jealousy, and are a super big sister. There have been times where you’ve really helped me out. You can calm Maizie down for a couple moments, you can give her a bottle, you give her cuddles and kisses, and best of all she loves you so much. You can make her giggle and coo. She lights up when she sees you. I love watching you two engage each other. With Hudson you are developing more and more of a friendship. You guys are often head to head playing with something, or watching the tablet together, reading together, or even just existing in the same room together. You guys do have some moments where you bicker, but they’re normal and not awful. Mostly you two are the best of buddies, and look out for each other.
So my sweet girl, here you are, 6! Embarking on being a kid, moving away from being a kindergartener to a big kid. You are so amazing, so smart, so athletic, so beautiful. I marvel at everything about you. You take my breath away and make me sigh with contentment. I love you so much. I am such a lucky Mama.
thank you for being you, my sweet girl!
Love, always and forever,